Thursday, 18 June 2020

gifts from the sea...

a tale of pegs...



urban template...

Forgotten Songs...

Apparently, there are 180 cages here...

a memory passed by...


More details of Paisley, aka Jodi Herman, aka Jodi Herman Dority, on my blog Veiled Songlines HERE  

One of her blogs was called Why-Paisley????  many posts are there from 2006-2013...
It is clear that she had an ongoing struggle with major health issues... but she kept writing and writing... I always loved the raw, unpretentious art of her words in action...

***Here is one of her posts from 2006...a non-poetic one and yet...still poetic...

a dignity i never had

“Sometimes people spend a lifetime protecting a dignity they never had.”
i have fought the fine fight to the finish as they say… and in this instant in time,.,, i feel as if i am winning.
today i am no longer interested in controlling anything or anyone. i am guilty instead, of falling far left of that and not even attempting to control anything. i have become quite lax in many areas, but i feel free some how for the first time in my life.
i am 45, not a hollywood 45,,, but 45,, like our mothers were supposed to be…you know, cute, plump, funny, loving and all because i can be. i am under no pressure to be anything other than that which i feel i am,,, and let me tell you ,,, this is a great feeling.
i know a lot of people my age,,, older even,,, who feel that have to struggle,, to fight,, to maintain their youth,, i give mine freely to anyone that wants it. i am soooo much happier. i am sooo much more at ease with myself, my life, my exsistence i ever was… and most of it has to do with letting go.
no way do i feel that i am supposed to be upholding a vision that was cast for me by people that actually chose not to know me. no.
no more do i feel closeted in by the confines of family,. heritage, society, media.. no.
i lost many years of my life,, my youth, and many people in my desire to create a dignity i thought i had or could force someone into believing ,,, and for what!!!!!!!!! for scars that will never go away,,, for hurts that will never really heal… for nothing of any value…nothing…
and yet, i am not bitter, i am greatful.. i am thrilled to be 45 , and have the opportunity to discard that which kept me bound in so many ways for so many years to something that never belonged to me….
tonight i can sit here in my country home,, dogs in the bed, fire in the fireplace, and know,,, i am happy i am alive, , and i am alone….

** Here is her response to the novel 'How Fear Moves'  - by Eugene Jackson. It is a memoir of an African American who had a tumultuous childhood and becomes a marine and officer in the Far East, the Gulf War, and multiple duty stations across America. His journey is one of self-discovery.

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